I woke up in bondage with the sunrise
The violent reds and cold grays
Throwing shadows on my borrowed bedroom's wall
Because I don't belong here, and I don't belong to you
I'm just passing through
I woke up in bondage with the sunshine
Twisted sheets, my heart skips a beat
And I'm torn from the dream I was living
The best way to my heart is through my tearducts
Because you leave me wondering:
how could I have been better?
how could I have changed things,
So that I could have kept you
in my arms?
Or at least kept me
in your mind
Am I so easily forgotten?
Tossed aside like these crumpled bedsheets
Thrown away like dirty laundry on Sunday
Because it was Sunday
When you left me, this last time
And I should be over you by now
But I keep waking up in bondage
Tied at hands and feet with caring
Curses
My heart betrays me when I wake
To sunshine and heartache
And I'm torn today
The thought of you makes my chest hurt
Eyes squeezed shut against the memories
But these lashes aren't waterproof
And the emotions slip out to slide down
My freckled cheeks
I hate you for affecting me this way
I hate you for being fine,
When I'm so obviously not okay
I hate you on days like today
When I wake up in bondage
Tied to the memories with eyes leaking
But the rain won't wash the pain away
And one look into my eyes shows that
This muddy decay
I woke up in bondage with the sunrise
The violent reds and cold grays
Throwing shadows on my borrowed bedroom's wall
Because I don't belong here, and I don't belong to you
I'm just passing through
I woke up in bondage with the sunshine
Twisted sheets, my heart skips a beat
And I'm torn from the dream I was living
The best way to my heart is through my tearducts
Because you leave me wondering:
how could I have been better?
how could I have changed things,
so that I could have kept you?
in my arms
Or at least kept me
in your mind
Am I so easy?
So easily forgotten?
Tossed aside so quickly
like these crumpled bedsheets
Thrown away so quietly
like dirty laundry
©2011 ~strawberry-goodness
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